[tt] Frank Forman, Cochlear Cyborg, update of 2007.11.11

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Frank Forman, Cochlear Cyborg, update of 2007.11.11


Monday (October 15): Last night I heard the great Passacaglia and Fugue 
so poorly that I did not pick up the tune I knew so well! Ditto this 
morning with the Moonschein sonata. If I had had the scores in front of 
me, I'm sure I would have synchronized.

Sound and Beyond: Recall that I'm now making two tests as difficult as 
possible. There being no levels, I've stopped asking for a reply and 
now I'm not even looking at the choices beforehand. Naturally, my 
scores went down. The idea is to build them back up and up and up, to 
the point where I'm not gaining any more training. I've already made 
the six word discrimination tests as hard as I can. Today, it's the two 
music appreciation tests.

Instruments: blind 13 out of 18, seeing, same, but it was 15 when 
I could look at the choices.
Familiar melodies: blind  9 out of 16, seeing, 14, , but it was 15 when 
I could look at the choices. I didn't make a blind guess at all, as I 
am quite tired.

No scratch this first result. I am just tired now and am not even 
recording things properly. The results of what I pressed stay on the 
computer and:

The Moving Finger writes; and, having writ,
Moves on: nor all your Piety nor Wit
Shall lure it back to cancel half a Line,
Nor all your Tears wash out a Word of it.

[Who said that?]

On the way home, I picked up the attenuating cord at RadioSnack. It 
works in cutting down the noise, but its attenuation of 90 db is too 
much. The result is, that to get a decent volume in my cyberear, the 
music blasts into my meat ear. I can correct this by doing what I did 
when still wearing hearing aids, namely put a resistor, value to be 
determined by experiment, in the wire going to my meat ear. Or, I can 
hope that all I have to do is reduce the length of the cable I bought 
at RadioSnack. Just clip out the part of it and solder it back 
together. [Later: I made some time ago a patch cord with a resistor 
for my left ear, to make the left and right channels come out okay on 
my stereo. It's funny that one I made for my WalkWoman (220 ohms) 
works okay there, but when I use my stereo, I had generally had to 
turn the balance control almost completely to the right. I forget how 
many ohms were on this second resistor, but it was considerably higher 
than the one for my WalkWoman. The value for these resistors was 
determined by trial and error. I asked Dave Tanner, my physics friend 
at the University of Florida, what the formula would be, given my 
comparative hearing loss on each ear. He said the formula would be too 
complicated and that I should resort to trial and error. I turns out 
that this patch cord works pretty well for my purposes. But, problems 
remain. The RadioSnack cord worked for a while on my stereo and then 
stopped. It comes and goes and its effectiveness varies when I use 
this cord alone or in conjunction with the splitter cord that feeds 
into a body aid receiver in my meat ear and a miniplug to go into my 
sound processor. Also, my stereo itself seems to be causing problems. 
I'm just going to buy a new one. I looked far and wide to find one 
which allowed one to adjust the channel balance from the remote 
control, since I would often lie down and take one of my three or four 
daily naps and not have to get up to adjust the balance, which would 
prevent my falling into a light sleep, which my narcolepsy requires 
that I do. But now, the sound processor can be controlled lying down 
and it's just the overall volume that I'll need to adjust. I am not, I 
repeat I am not, a lazy couch potato that never exercises!)

So for a while, it will be only my cyber ear. I tried the Passacaglia 
and Fugue again. Poor results.

Sarah asked me to pick up some vitamin B1 on the way home. I thought 
I'd just get some at Whole Foods, where I get my yogurt, but it wanted 
$5.50 for a hundred 100 mg. "organic" tablets. Fergit it, I said. So I 
got walking down to Rodman's. The store I bought my Glenn Gould iSong 
years ago was still open. So I went in and asked about other CDs to 
train with. It had none, but I spotted a four-octave roll-up keyboard 
that I can listen to without it producing irritating sounds, just 
going to my processor. This is exactly what I need! It does a bunch of 
things, which just about everything electronic does. It produces a 
pure tone imitates 99 different instruments. The scale sounds bad, but 
a little better as I fooled around. I may replace some of my Gould 
training with this. [Later: I have to take it back. I can't completely 
turn off the volume coming out of the speaker and this annoys Sarah no 
end. Besides, every note dies out in about a second, irregardless of 
what the score says. So, out comes an old electronic Casio keyboard, 
and this works fine. I've used it thrice iirc and am distressed that 
the notes subjectively are badly wrong and that I can't perceive 
octaves. But remember that I couldn't tell men's from women's voices 
at all.


Tuesday (October 16): Not very good with the Beethoven, cyber ear only.

At noon, I walked over to the Mall to look at the 2007 Solar Decathlon 
and heard various hosts at several houses pretty well, unless they 
spoke too rapidly, which many of them did. A woman came up to me about 
my cochlear implant (I wear a bright orange receiver to draw attention 
to it.) She had one herself and we got to talking for about fifteen 
minutes. I sent her this diary, hoping for an engaging correspondence, 
but I never heard from her again. This happens to me a lot, for 
reasons I don't quite understand.

Later that day, I had a nice conversation with a Rambling wreck and 
learned that solar panels are 17% efficient and that even when 
they are angled, they are still 12% efficient. He was a practical guy 
and completely understood that the energy CRISIS is an economic thing.

I decided just to go back to my older system using the telephone 
adapter. I looked at the score of the Passacaglia and quickly hooked 
onto the main melody. It's all out of scale but I loved listening to 
it, though I didn't make out any of the countermelodies. I await a 
concentrated listening while following the score.

I have decided that I love myself and my life! My wife, my wife, too, 
my wife most especially. This is nothing new. But I realize more than 
ever that she is my partner, my partner on the journey that is my 
life. I can be distressed with who I am and that I'm just a bureaucrat 
who got only one promotion back in 1972. Partly this is because I 
can't pick up all the little signals and gossip, where the real stuff 
is communicated but also because I am not shy in questioning everybody 
and everything, while most folks just want to go along to get along, 
an attitude written in our genes. Search for the word primate to see 
my explanation for this. I have a certain compulsiveness here, since I 
just can't accept that I'm not seen as helpful when I raise questions. 
And I'm not nearly as disciplined when it comes to undertaking my own 
projects.

I dabble too much. Still, this dabbling pays off. The Internet 
exacerbates this no end, as many of us know from personal experience. 
Even so, there's nothing really I am going to find out by reading more 
in the philosophy of mathematics, one of my oldest loves, that will 
spill over into anything else. I won't come to any conclusion of my 
own, let alone persuade anyone else. It's a sheer indulgence. But for 
all of the indulgence, I was able to put my other wide reading to use 
and to recombine a lot of what I know when I read The Book of Mormon 
and a lot more about that branch of Christianity. I don't think anyone 
else would have come up with what I did. I love being me, to having 
the talent to do this, to have dabbled so widely, to have an urge to 
make these recombinations. And I love the paths my life has taken. Not 
that I would not instantly have my hearing restored! I did take a huge 
risk by having my operation, and even if I may never be able to listen 
properly to music again, I love my having pursued this greatest 
outpouring of the human mind to know that great music is possible and 
that I personally have experienced it. It's just a bunch of notes on a 
page! But music, some of it, speaks truths that cannot be expressed in 
any other way.

Should my operation prove a failure as far as music goes, going 
through it adds something to my being me, which I am chronicling for 
others. Even the suicide of my daughter has been turned into something 
added to my being. I would reverse it, absolutely, but, oddly, I am 
strengthened by it, too. I can't explain this, not yet. I love my life 
in that I drifted into being a bureaucrat who never took his work 
seriously and hence followed his own bliss in his reading and 
thinking, although basically a frustrated college professor. I think 
that had I become one, I would have barely squeaked by the tenure 
process and would not have become a full professor. I would publish 
little, since I just don't have the discipline to play the game. My 
first boss at work, Sam Brown, put in a performance appraisal that 
finishing projects is just as important as staring them. He was a wise 
man. Once when I grumbled about how long a project would take, he 
remarked that what it demands is persistence. I have repeated that 
many times. I'd have made a great professor--for a very few students.

Music is a mystery. So is love. Should I not be able to properly 
listen to music again, I shall have known it. I know too many people 
who have never known love at all, I am saddened by this, but it's not 
an absence to them. Nothing that I have read explains the higher forms 
of music or of love. There is plenty about its biology, but the 
*specific* greatness of a couple of dozen composers defies analysis, 
even while there is a general consensus about who they are. My own 
list contains no surprises but it does contain omissions. I find no 
merit in Verdi, for example, but others whose judgments I esteem do. 
It is my loss.


Wednesday (October 17):

I really should move up to the second level in vowel and consonant 
recognition, like I've done for male/female identification.

Word discrimination; There are 25 in each category. Again, I'm closing 
my eyes and guessing before I look at the choices.

Animals: blind 8, seeing 24
Food: 9, 24
Color 7, 24
Family 13,24
Number 18,24
Time 15,24. So I missed one of each.


Thursday (October 18):

Birthday party for me and three others born in October in my office. I 
didn't hear very well and so used it as a training session.

Instruments 13, 16 out of 18
Familiar Melodies 8, 13 out of 16.

My brain is having problems in calling up from memory the name of the 
tune, though I jolly well know what it is.

I've finished 18 rounds. On to the 19th:

On the Pure Tone Discrimination test, the software keeps telling me to 
practice at level 4 instead of level 5. My scores have run starting 
from 19 out of 25, with a low of 10 (still better than chance, which 
would be 25/3 = 8 1/3) and today's new high of 21. It got all the first 
ten right but missed 3 of the last 15. Quite often, I do better at 
first, but other times, I try extra hard and do better later.


Friday (October 19): All My Children: Adam, Greenlee, and Richie 
continue to want to be a part of other people's lives. Never found out 
about Ryan's accidental shooting of his wife. She seems to be just 
fine. Ryan offers Richie a job so he can keep an eye on him.

Jim Lehrer Newshour: Mrs. Bhutto spoke in English, good enough for me 
to mostly follow. More and more politicians have learned to speak 
English. John McCain was given a softball interview by Lehrer. He came 
across as empty-headed rather than as belligerent.


Saturday (October 20): Spent an hour on the iSong of Invention NO. 1, 
building up from the greatest breakdown to eventually getting to Gould 
himself. Did a lot of this practicing with my eyes closed. Still, I 
have yet to recognize the music as familiar.


Sunday (October 21); I spent an hour with my new Portable Folding 
Piano, tediously going up and down the scales in four octaves. My ears 
just don't subjectively hear the scale properly. What I'm doing is 
imagining that I am hearing the scales and thus training my ears.


Tuesday (October 23): Didn't notice when the Fugue in g, S. 578, the 
"Little Fugue in g minor,"that Mr. Kitson chose as an example of a 
fugue, when it came on.


Wednesday (October 24): First rain when out jogging since I started 
using my processor as well as my meat ear. The processor not being 
water-proof, I wrapped in my knapsack and listened with my meat ear 
along, this time to some rondos and other shorter works of Beethoven on 
my Schnabel tapes. The tunes kept interfering and the scales are 
distorted. Not good today!

Art Museum: Excellent news here. I walked into a talk about my favorite 
American painter, Edward Hopper, conducted by Diana Arkin. She was 
enthusiastic and had such clear diction that I could generally follow 
her, even though she spoke quite rapidly. My mind wandered, as it so 
often does, more so when I am listening without captions than listening 
with them or just reading, though I've been known to read every word in 
a paragraph and not have any of the sentences register with me. I 
suspect this is quite a common problem.

Sound and Beyond: Word Discrimination

Animals: blind 8, seeing 23
Food:  12, 24
Color  11, 22
Family 13, 23
Number 18, 24
Time   15, 24.

Not much change. On the other hand, I got only 56% of the Everyday 
Sounds (with the highest level of background noise). Way down from 84% 
last time and the time before that. This is only my fourth run at this 
level. The first time was 36%.

Instruments 14, 17 out of 18
Familiar Melodies 9, 14 out of 16.
Up one blind guess and one seeing guess throughout.

I listened to the Diabelli Variations (Schnabel), strangely, since the 
scale was off, but I certainly could follow the rhythm and hooked into 
greatness in a real way. This may be the best piece of music I can 
just follow.


Friday (October 26)

Finished the Diabellis. Sorry to say, when the variations, Op. 34, 
came on my cassette tape, I didn't connect, nor, much more surprisingly 
to the Eroica Variations, Op. 35.

All My Children: More of the usual stuff about people who want to hang 
around but who are not wanted. At the start, Erica packs a pistol to 
shoot Greenlee with. At the end, she meets her in a park. Stay tuned 
for the next show. Jack doesn't like Erica's plan to get his daughter, 
Greenlee, sent away to Paris to help manage their business over there. 
Adam warns his son, J.R., about the manipulations of Zach. Richie, now 
working for Ryan, continues to be a trouble maker.

Jim Lehrer Newshour: Boring and I must say that I found it hard to 
concentrate on training my ears. A mostly wasted hour.

Wednesday (October 31): I've decided to stop listening to music for two 
weeks, except for the training sessions with iSong and my keyboard. I 
fear that I'm making my brain get used to hearing the notes wrongly and 
then making me to expect them that way. When I'm training, I 
concentrate on telling my mind to hear the note correctly. But when 
listening casually, my new default errors may take over. It would be 
very hard to conduct an experiment, both because finding the subjects 
would be not be easy (esp. if they must be at the same stage in their 
training, something itself hard to define), and because individual 
variation may drain out any actual effect. If, at the end of two weeks, 
I note anything dramatic, being conscious of the statistical problems, 
I'll surely let everyone know.

Saturday (November 3): iSong. I carefully built up from the most 
simplified version of WTC 1 prelude (left hand slow, left hand faster, 
right hand slow, right hand faster, combined slow, combined faster), 
then repeat for the less simplified, then to the full score, and 
finally to Mr. Gould. I heard the piece not so far from my memory of it 
this time, a real improvement.


Sunday (November 4):

Sarah's stepfather was in the hospital as a result of the wrong dosage 
of some medicine he was taking but is now back in a special ward of 
his retirement home. I am so little interested in the down side of 
life that I can't remember what the medicine is or any of the details. 
Sarah and I went out to their home, and she took her mother to church, 
while I stayed in the library, rereading the opening foray of the 
famous debate on the place of natural law in legal philosophy between 
H.L.A. Hart and Lon Fuller that started in 1958. (I am a Fuller man 
myself and got published a short article in Vera Lex, a small 
international journal devoted to natural law. The editor told me that 
my writing is rich, highly allusive, satirical, and a fourth thing, 
but that I had better write it so those around the world who do not 
speak English as a first language can understand my essay. As it 
happens, I am now helping do research on a "strategic plan" for the 21 
countries in the Asia-Pacific Economic Cooperation (the Pacific 
counterpart to the European Union) regarding the learning of English. 
It is being done under the auspices of the Human Resources Development 
working group of APEC, of which my boss's boss is the "Lead Shepherd"! 
This shows that Asians do not understand English. We English speakers 
are so steeped in the Bible that the word shepherd has a special 
meaning to us:

Psalm 23

Because the Lord is my Shepherd, I have everything I need!

He lets me rest in the meadow grass and leads me beside the quiet 
streams. He gives me new strength. He helps me do what honors him the 
most.

Even when walking through the dark valley of death I will not be 
afraid, for you are close beside me, guarding, guiding all the way.

You provide delicious food for me in the presence of my enemies. You 
have welcomed me as your guest; blessings overflow!

Your goodness and unfailing kindness shall be with me all of my life, 
and afterwards I will live with you forever in your home.

--The Living Bible, 1967

The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.

He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside 
the still waters.

He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness 
for his name's sake.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I 
will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they 
comfort me.

Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: 
thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: 
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.

--The King James Bible, 1611

I hope even my non-English readers will be shocked about this 
disgraceful mauling of a sacred text. Mr. Mencken thought that 
Christianity would be finished if the Bible were ever translated into 
American, that the continued power of religion is owed to the majestic 
language that dulls one's critical faculties. Unfortunately, he was 
wrong. Religion throughout the world has been on the increase during 
the last half century, a reversal of the secularization thesis.

There is a undercurrent among certain Protestants called the King 
James Only movement. They insist, correctly, upon the magnificence of 
the translation, "appointed to be *read* in churches," as the title 
page states and some of them say are convinced that the Holy Ghost 
oversaw what was, after all, a committee doing the translating, and 
corrected errors in the manuscripts that they used, making the KJV an 
improvement. (Joseph Smith did the same thing, and claimed divine 
inspiration, but was martyred before he finished.)

Anyhow, my article for Vera Lex was at a high level, certainly in 
comparison to internationally syndicated American teevee shows and 
movies. Media barons don't know in advance what will sell abroad but, 
in anticipation, dumb down the English so that those who study 
English taught by widely different methods and will widely 
different levels of rigor can follow the script. The most widely 
watched teevee show of all time, with 1.1 billion viewers, was not all 
that popular here. Its name? Baywatch.

So, I get assigned to assist the shepherd doing research. I am not 
invited into any meetings but just try to finish research assignments, 
in the first instance to find out what the "curriculum standards" are 
for English in the non-English speaking countries of APEC. I couldn't 
do it, except in two or three cases. They just aren't on the Web (and 
I'm good at using the right combinations of words to do searches) and 
my e-mails have gone unanswered. (This is not due to my personality!) 
Now these curriculum standards, certainly in most U.S. states, are 
wishful thinking. I've seen that for economics at the high school 
level for the state of Maryland. What happens is that grave experts 
sit around at a table and go over their proposals. Should students 
know about the rediscount rate? Of course. Add it in. Should they know 
about elasticity of demand? Add it in. At the end, there is so much 
that I would fail to meet the standards, even though I do happen to 
have a doctorate in the field! What's also the case is that the 
standard that will come out of the process will be quite random, 
especially in other countries for teaching English. I do wish I had 
been able to assemble them, though what might have resulted would be 
just combining *all* of them into an even more ridiculous set of 
requirements.

In the process I found quite a number of potentially useful things. 
One is that English to those in other countries does not mean learning 
the great masterworks written in the English language. (I last had 
grammar in the ninth grade. I'm a preppie, but I do think grammar gets 
reduced in most of the above average high schools, at any rate, as 
students move from the ninth to the twelfth grades.) Not so abroad. 
Their English is practical and there are even courses called "business 
English" (and in Russia one in "legal English"). I thought there might 
be courses in call-center English for those who aspire to work in call 
centers and handle your queries about defective products.

I also discovered that many of these countries are trying out 
different methods of teaching English and running experiments. In 
fact, I would have it that my shepherd's strategic plan mostly deal 
with setting up an information center. Otherwise, I question the whole 
business. It is hardly a secret that English is being more and more 
widely used as economies interconnect. If the problem is that kids 
aren't interested in learning what their parents insist that they 
learn, well, this is a problem that concerns all of education. (Maybe, 
just maybe, what parents want, better: what the experts want, is 
for kids to learn irrelevant, no longer relevant, never was relevant 
and boring.) Or is it the case that kids want to learn English but 
that the school systems are too protected from competition to provide 
enough courses to keep up with the demand? At least this is English 
specific. Are the teachers not good enough? This is non-English 
specific. In short, just what exactly is the problem that this 
"strategic plan" is supposed to address. So one weekend I put together 
a short but well-organized set of ideas about this plan.

It was ignored. But I still love myself and love my life. At least I 
can write up my thoughts. At least my life gives me the opportunity to 
explore and focus on problems such as this.

Well, after Sarah and her mother finished the service, Sarah called me 
in from the library to come to the coffee hour afterwards. I generally 
would rather not, since it's hard for me to hear and most people are 
not as interesting as whatever it is that I am reading. Even so, I can 
use contact with others, and Sarah loves to show me off. This time 
what I learned was extraordinary. I got to talking to a retired 
Lieutenant General, Frank Camm, who moved into the Manhattan Project 
after the civilian scientist left in 1946. (The retirement home, The 
Fairfax, consists mostly of military men, though her stepfather, 
Andrew Weber, was with the Army Corps of Engineers as a civilian who 
worked on portable bridges, a fascinating subject.)

http://www.aog.usma.edu/NetCommunity/Page.aspx?pid=592&srcid=446
http://www.zamandayolculuk.com/cetinbal/manhattanprojx.htm

We talked about Iran's getting the bomb. He convinced me that they 
were aiming to build one, since they had so much oil that they hardly 
needed a nuclear reactor to produce electricity. Sovereign states are 
supposed to have weapons, I pointed out. Still, he replied, the United 
States ought to prevent such proliferation.

I then recalled that in graduate school, we economics students would 
talk about the ultimate consequences of a free-market in atomic bombs. 
One would cost at most $1 million for the materials and the bomb 
itself. He agreed with that and also with my observation that a major 
effect would be a tremendous decentralization of the population. Just 
imagine if those in Richmond threaten to nuke the feds if they keep 
sending in their revenooers. This would have been much worse when it 
made economic sense to have long assembly lines in huge factories, but 
even now face-to-face contact remains of the greatest importance. I 
can appreciate this, learning as I have that communication means 
overhearing things as much as the literal text of words in formal 
conversations. This leads me to reflect that, back in the Stone Age, 
when our big brains served to coordinate social cooperation (still the 
case) but when language was much more limited, that it is gestures and 
other non-verbal forms of communication that mattered even more than 
it does now. It takes big brains to decipher the subtleties of 
non-verbal communication.

I told him about a military man at the annual Government Employee 
Recognition Week on the Mall who told me that nuclear material is so 
dangerous that one could not simply carry a bomb in one's backpack, 
trying to take it up to the top of the Washington Monument, for more 
than a few minutes without getting so much radiation that one would 
die, or even place it in a desert cart and wheel it past incompetent 
guards. No so, he told me. He had a live bomb in his office for 
several weeks just a few feet from his desk! I suppose I should feel 
afraid, very afraid, since I work about a mile from the Washington 
Monument. He told me that making a bomb is not easy, nor getting 
together enough fissionable material. I said you can get recipes off 
the Web. Still, it's hard to do. Are the Iranians competent enough? 
No, but they can get the plans from the Pakistanis. Where did they get 
the plans. From the North Koreans. Why would the North Koreans sell 
them the plans? Just for the money.

He was called away, but I do think that, unless there is a free-market 
in bombs or the Iranians or whoever get quite a number of them, one 
won't be wasted in D.C. Israel is far more likely to be the target. 
I'm still a little worried, but not enough to quit my job and move to, 
say, Charlottesville. I heard most of what he said. I used my external 
uni-directional microphone. Andrea said I no longer needed to cart 
around such things, that the tiny omni-directional mike that plugs 
into my sound processor is good enough. Here she is just plainly 
wrong, something rare for her.

That afternoon we went to a short service in the Little Georgetown 
Church, as it's called, near Warrenton. My daughter, Alice, is buried 
on the grounds there, along with Sarah's father and other family 
members. Next to Sarah's family farm lived her grandmother's person 
physician, Dr. William Hazel. They have family buried there, too, and 
in attendance was Til Hazel and his wife Anne. They had fixed up a 
small building, Helfin's Store, next to the church, and had a 
reception there. Til is a big real estate developer in Northern 
Virginia and a big contributor to George Mason University. Sarah and I 
had dinner with them once at one of the Public Choice get togethers. I 
told them of some ideas of mine to better put George Mason on the map. 
One is to have one of the Master of Arts in Interdisciplinary Studies 
to cover museum management. I pointed out that a famous study of elite 
boards, corporate, financial, government, charitable, educational, and 
so on, found that those in one group would commonly sit on boards of 
another. Indeed, Anne sat on the board of the Corcoran Art Gallery. I 
mentioned a friend who was the best student at my boarding school, who 
got a B.A. in art history at Williams and went on to pick up an MBA at 
Harvard. He became the director of the Brooklyn Museum of Art, then 
the San Francisco Museum of Modern Art, and is now retiring as 
director of the Dallas Museum of Art. What an inspired choice of 
degrees! I said that if GMU could place museum directors, GMU's name 
would become well-known to the elite. Anne loved my idea and will take 
it up with the art department at GMU. Creating such a degree will take 
very little.

I did not tell them of a far more ambitious project, namely for GMU to 
field an entire School of Darwin Studies, after hosting a conference, 
"Darwin across the Disciplines: The Re-Enchanted World Charles Darwin 
Started." Sarah and I met President Alan Merten at a get-together (for 
the second time, actually) and he asked for bold ideas for George 
Mason. I sent a thirty-page proposal, detailing scholars in a score of 
fields, who have used Darwin's ideas of random variation and natural 
selection. But I never heard from him, not even a pro-forma reply. 
Since several scholars with whom I had discussed my ideas pronounced 
them excellent and my exposition coherent and persuasive, I can only 
surmise that Merten grasped that the more conservative Christians in 
the Virginia legislature would be so enraged that they would threaten 
GMU's funding. But he knows better than to tell me so. Therefore, 
silence.

I do get an astonishing amount of silence! He also did not respond to 
my idea about an interdisciplinary degree in museum management.

I have a third idea, which Mrs. Hazel invited me to tell her about. 
This is to put the great 78 rpm recordings of Victor and Columbia on a 
server and let the world come to them and this spread GMU's fame. I 
inherited a cassette collection of these 78s from an elementary school 
teacher in Huron, SD, and culled 1000 of them that were just these 
major albums. My hearing isn't at all up to running the cassettes into 
my own computer. So someone would have to volunteer and also to build 
a catalog. This I can do, since I have an excellent knowledge of these 
great old recordings (which constitute, arguably, the core of Western 
civilization itself), but I'd rather let someone else do the work, one 
who knows more about servers and the technical aspects of them. Now I 
can get a pocket hard drive to hold the music for under $100. 
(Calculation: MP3 files eat up a Megabyte a minute. 90 minutes per 
cassette, times 1000 cassettes, yields 90 gigabytes. However, this 
drive would not be good enough to use on a server, if more than one 
person wants to access it. A server-quality hard drive would cost 
maybe ten times as much, and you'd also have to pay someone to 
actually run the server. We're talking about pocket change (not MY 
pocket!) here, if GMU can get the volunteers in the music or computer 
science departments. It would be a great way for the music students 
and faculty to learn these old recordings themselves!

There's been talk for over a decade about doing this, but those 
involved turn their long noses down at using consumer-grade equipment 
and not using transfer engineers to do a proper job of declicking and 
centering the discs, but who charge $100 an hour, which is how long it 
takes to transfer a single 4½ rpm side. But I have shared tapes with 
collectors on six continents (none with Antarctica, alas) with great 
pleasure.


Tuesday (November 6): Sound and Beyond, vowel recognition. I scored my 
worst in two months. The way I listen for the odd voice out of three is 
to try to hear the odd pitch. But my brain is trying to make me hear 
high-low-high or low-high-low and thus always pick the second as the 
odd voice out. So I must try hard to focus on a distinguishing mark 
besides pitch.


Thursday (November 8): Sound and Beyond. I've gone through twenty-one 
sessions now. Here are the results of testing, to show my progress:

Date Tone Envi M/F Vowe Cons Sent

TESTS
#Questions 60 25 48 48 40 25
Chance % 33 25 50 8 5 25

1 0717 100  44 52  8  5  96
2 0830  93  52 52 26 18 100
3 0926  93  56 90 30 28 100
4 1030  89  76 90 38 35 100

So:

Pure Tone Discrimination. I've actually gotten somewhat worse.

Environmental Sounds, like telling a fire alarm from a car screeching. 
Steady improvement here.

Male/Female: Much improvement indeed.

Vowels: Slow but steady

Consonants: Ditto

Everyday Sentences: I'm perfect here, but the training sessions 
involve various levels of background noise. For the tests, there is no 
background noise at all. I shall definitely continue training!

           -----WORD DISCRIMINATION-----  --MUSIC--
Date     Anim Food Colo Fami Numb Time  Inst Melo


#Questions 50   50   50   50   50   50    18   16
Chance %   25   25   25   25   25   25    25   25

1 0717     76   82   86   82   80   88    39   50
2 0830     92   88  100   98   98   94    72   69
3 0926     96   96   98   96  100  100    94   75
4 1031     96  100   96   98  100   96    89   94

I'm making nice progress, especially on the music tests. Alas, I'm 
practically perfect on a lot of these. (I put an rather awful high 
school picture of myself with a newspaper cut out containing the words 
"Practically Perfect" on the bookcase in the living room in the suite 
in Lile House at U.Va. It was not universally appreciated. I've 
repeated many, many times my score on a personality test I once took, 
which said I was "nearly normal." This has been vigorously disputed!)

For all the tests, I strive to get as high as score as I possibly can, 
repeating and repeating the sounds as necessary. But on this second 
batch, since I am "practically perfect," what I'm doing is to get 
additional training by not looking at the selections at all and then 
clicking my guess. A normal person (I would never claim my hearing is 
"nearly normal"!) is able to hear words without getting a set of 
choices, not looking at the speaker either, and doing it all rapidly. 
That's my goal, though I've been told that at best I'll be like 
someone with a mild hearing loss (not really "nearly normal"), and so 
I've been using the software in this way.

By now this flow of numbers is getting a little dull, and for me, too. 
So I'll just chronicle the highlights.


Friday (November 9): I spent a good four hours plus talking with 
Sharon Hamilton at the Midnight Mug, a little eatery at the library of 
Georgetown University. She's teaching Shakespeare in her literature 
class at George Mason, and I enlisted her to explain Shakespeare's 
Sonnets to me. We went over three of them. They aren't as hard as I 
had thought, not with her elucidating them, at any rate. We got to 
talking about many, many other things as well. My hearing was 
excellent! When we took a shuttle bus to Dupont Circle and it was too 
dark to see her face, my hearing wasn't so good.


Saturday (November 10); I missed my teevee shows. No great loss, but 
to make up for it, I spent two hours in training. I went through the 
Dr. Seuss books for the first time in three months, with very nice 
results. Closing my eyes and anticipating what was being said, though, 
I didn't do very well, but they weren't fresh on my mind. I was able 
to tell men's from women's voices quite well, though I didn't test 
this by listening in with my meat ear.

I played a new iSong disk, which features popular works, arranged for 
the piano as necessary:

Beethoven: Moonschein sonata, mvt. 1
Beethoven: Für Elise
Debussy: Claire de lune
Mozart: Rondo a la Turk
Bach: Jesu, joy of man's desiring
Rachmaninoff: 18th Paganini Variation

I only got through the Moonschein movement and was quite disappointed. 
Still I got better as the session went on. Next time I'll report on 
what may be my third book, tentatively entitled My Conversations with 
a Brick Wall.

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